happy christmas guys! hope you all have a skinny Christmas =]
Stay strong x

Why are ex boyfriends so mean?

I mean...I know he was abusive when we were together...but you'd think after over a year of being apart, he would just give it all up, right?

I mean it's not like I care for him...in fact I told him that, I told him about how I was getting married this year, and he laughed in my face and told me how I was absolutely nothing. So I told him, that I'm very happy now, and I'm actually being treated right...and that I feel like my relationship with him never even existed.

Because that is how I feel. I feel like he's not even real.

but then he tells me, "well at least I had you when you still looked at least a little decent, now that you've gained so much weight I wouldn't think twice about ever talking to you. And btw, be careful next time you purge."


...seriously?

It's not like I'm hurting because it's him...I know him too well to be upset about it. I know how he is, and that he just said it because it's his only defense against me when I hurt his feelings, because he knows how badly it hurts me.

It's just the fact that it was finally said by somebody, that I have gained too much weight to be considered pretty.

I'm not so sure what to do now, I fail at just about everything when it comes to trying to lose weight.

where did all my willpower go?

I'm so sick of myself.

It's put me in a slump all day.



This ex of mine, is also the guy who forced me into rehab while we were together, and as soon as I got out began calling me fat and telling me to lose weight.

He's also an anorexic.



I feel terrible.

This weekend I messed up really bad! I went out of town and spent some times with friends and ate my heart out. I weighed myself on saturday and I weight 127! I felt amazing :) and then I had a HUGE binge. I ate so much and felt like a total fat ass. I need to get back on track. I need to loose 7 pounds and I will be at my goal weight, but i fear with my huge bing that i just gained more weight. I am on my next week in my four week plan to get skinny.

It is good to get back and now I will continue to get skinny :) Thank you all for your support. Merry Christmas and think skinny :)

xoxo

I fucking know her.
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ok so i was doing really well so far today then had the family food shopping and i had a HUGE binge. now i feel guilty and discusting. tryed to purge but it has been so long that it was hard.
stay strong x

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im doing shit. i havent beinged or anything. i just feel hopeless. i need help or motivation. seriosuly anyboyd got anything good thats working for them :( ?
 
 
 
 
hope your all doing good btw:)

i wonder what body shape blake livey has ? x x x

I can't believe this is me.
I don't feel like I have collarbones like that( 90 )

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last night while i was out there were so many skinny girls so not fair =[ then when i went home i had a binge =[

Everytime you say no to food, you say yes to thin

I did pretty darn good today! My calorie intake was about 450 and thats wicked good for being an athlete :) I did somewhat "binge" on a chocolate bar and that is my main source of calorie intake but I didnt eat lunch so that kinda made up for it. I have been going to basketball practice for aobut 2 hours and then coming home and doing 1 hour of exercises :)
I feel so proud of myself...I hope you girls are doing a kick ass job to!!

Have a awesome night :)

ps. my boyfirend told me I am "thick" in all the right places...I wanted to cry my eyes out...what do yall think of what he said? Please I would love to have some feedback on that

heyy girless how is everyone ? how your all well ? i was wondering what is your 'safe food' expcet fruit ( it gives me a REALLY bad stomach) and vegatables i Really fussy lols . i nomally eat cerals, beans and soup there all low fat. i really need some for christmas ! really need your advice guyys ? all my love and support rose xxxx

IM SOOO unhappy..... i hate myself and my body gosh.... i hope im down in weight 2moro... atleast 1 pound! im sooo sad, about 1 month ago i dumped my boyfriend so i could have more time concentrating on my eating disorder. i dnt regret it thoughhhh im happy about tht.


Xh0neybunnyX

Hi, my name is Lisa. I am 23.
I used to be a member of anorexicqueen on livejournal but I can't remember my acount information so I had to make a new one.

I have been batteling with an eating disorder for over 5 years now.
exactly 4 weeks ago I had my second child.
I am having a really hard time getting the weight off. I have been eating hardly anything and have only lost 5 pounds so far.
I am very discouraged.
I am going to the store to purchase slim quick pills soon. I used to take them and I like to think they worked.
I am only going to eat fruits and vegtables and drink lots and lots of water.

I just feel so discusting. I know my boyfriend loves me even though I don't have the perfect body. I know he doesn't care.
What is funny is that he doesnt have the perfect body and I don't care. I find him to be the sexiest man I have ever met anyways. Why can't I see my self like that.

anyways. I really need the support. I need to get back to the way I was. Beautiful.

Heres my stats:

height: 5'6
current weight:170 lbs
Lowest weight"129 lbs

Goal weight: 125 lbs

This is a picture of me after losing weight after my first child. I want to get back to this or smaller. Smaller would be nice.

Todays intake: 610.
Not horrible, but, obviously not the best. Because I keep telling myself that I am going to fast, But it never works out. Slowly though, everyday, I find myself less and less hungry the less I eat.

So my plan for tomorrow:
Do not eat before/at work.
Walk home from work (1 hr - 1 1/2 hrs)
Finish the last of my 0 cal salad.

From there I am going to watch Paper Heart. Holy cow. Michael Cera is amazing. I am so excited for it. Anywho that's basically the extent of what I have to say tonight.

my AIM: airyckahh.
Add me :)

xoxo,
Airyckah